A letter to Lanth

Dear Lanthan,

Today marks the tenth day since I saw you last. I miss you a lot more than usual. It's weird being home with you not here. Mckennah has been taking up a lot of your time lately, and deep down I understand. But I'm not gonna lie, she's not my favorite person right now. I hope you know that I love being your sister. I'm glad we figured out how to get along, cause you're my best friend. Forever. I miss you like crazy. Sometimes I think about how great summers were before McKennah. I loved staying up late and watching dumb shows with you every night. Those will always be some of my favorite memories. But I'm also happy that you found her. She makes you happy, so that makes me happy. I love you dude. And like I said, I MISS YOU.

Love always,
Mal

Chances

Since I got home from school in January I've been helping out at the dentist office that my mom works at. I was originally hired to do sterilization, which is a fancy way of saying..."we need you to clean the instruments and mop up puke when necessary." Luckily, yesterday was the first time I have ever been needed for the latter. But guess what? I did it, I cleaned up someone's throw up. And it wasn't even someone I love. Just some random girl. And I have lived to tell of the experience. Looks like my future kids won't have too bad of a mom after all.

Anyway, I like working. I feel useful, and that's a good feeling.



p.s. to the boy that has feelings for me at this moment in time...thanks for making me feel wanted. i think i like you too.

"afraid to love beyond what i can lose when it comes to you."

Thoughts on thoughts

I don't know how to feel about this. I've never had someone so into me in my entire life. It's kinda freaking me out. It's also kinda endearing.

I got mad at Greg today for telling me to do something just as I was about to do it. Sorry dad, I love you.

Jillian Michaels, you're DVD kicked my bottom. I may need help getting out of bed in the morning.

MOLLY SHAKES HANDS FOLKS.

I've always wanted a sister. She'd be good to talk to at a time like this.

If you call me mal I like you. Mally...not so much.

I like to put quotes at the end of my posts. Deal with it.

K, bye

P.s. MELISSA THIS IS TWO DAYS IN A ROW.


"You have suffered enough at war with yourself, it's time that you've won."

For the days I need reminding

Just a few reminders to myself. I figure that maybe if I write/type...whatever...them out that they will be easier to remember.

-life has lots of ups and downs, it's meant to be that way.
-you're lucky to have two jobs, let alone one. stop complaining about having to go to work.
-it feels good to get a compliment. stop making people feel bad when they say something nice about you,
-IT'S NOT WORTH IT. ever.
-people have your back Mal. you got this.
-it's okay to have a bad day(s). just make sure you're doing everything you can to make for good ones.
-you are a daughter of God. no one can ever take that from you. no one.
-you have good things going for you. don't jeopardize that.
-stay busy, you'll be better off.
-stop feeling sorry for yourself. you have a wonderful, live and love it.
-laugh it out, you're always happier when you are laughing.



"Let me see redemption win, let me know the struggle ends. That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn. I wanna know a song can rise from the ashes of a broken life, and all that's dead inside can be reborn. Cause I'm worn."-Tenth Avenue North

Lunch.

Since Friday night I have had to remind myself that it is just a meal. That's all Mallorie, just a meal.

Friday night an old friend managed to squeeze himself back into my life. Just like that. Since October 6, 2011 I planned on never seeing this person again. Okay....that's a lie. But I promised myself that I wouldn't go out of my way to cross his path.

Needless to say, our paths have crossed. And he just happens to be a little nicer, a little more handsome and a little more intent on seeing me than he was two years ago. Anyway, he says he wants to meet up for lunch to catch up. So I agreed, cause honestly I missed him a lot, and he was a good friend, and how can you say no to such a perfect smile?

Adam Cleveland, don't you go breakin' my heart now.

Things.

- God is good. Always.
- I'm struggling with the decision of where to travel. I'm up for suggestions
- Books, books are good. Especially the one I just read (My Ridiculous, Romantic Obsessions.) It's real life, I think that's why I enjoyed it so much. Thanks grandma Carol.
- Family is best.
- I would LOVE some rain. K, thanks.
- I miss my brother. He's here, but he's not here. And I don't care that that makes no sense.
- Wedding videos on pinterest make me so hopeful for my future.
- It feels good to let go of someone that let go of you so long ago. so so good.
- I'm gonna be a better friend this week. (Melissa, see you Sunday)
- I'm teaching my dog Molly to shake (hands)....update soon.
- The Pursuit of Happyness, watch it.
- You Are More- Tenth Avenue North, listen to it.



"The greatest thing in the world is not so much where we are, but the direction in where we are going."

Two Thousand and Fourteen

2014, I like the sound of that.
2013 was a rough year. But it had some good points as well.

For instance:

-Running with Dad (greg)

-Spending time with Nana.

-Sleeping in with Molly.

-GOOD MOVIES

-Lots of time to sit and think (good and bad)

-Visit from Jayleney :)

-DISNEYLAND

-First Job

-$$$$$$$$$$$$$

-Good  GREAT friends.

-Mom's road trip to Idaho to get me

-Going back to Rexburg.

-Rooming with two of the best people I've ever known. 

-family game nights

-lots and lots of laughs

-San Francisco x2

-LA

-NO MORE ACNE

-Utah at Thanksgiving

-Snow, lots of snow

-Montana x2

-new friends!

-good music

-flights home

-the beautiful Holiday season spent with family

Looking back, I have a lot to be thankful for. 

I'm more than ready to move on from this past year. Like I said, it was a tough one. 

"She wasn't bitter. She was sad, though. But it was the hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time."- The Perks of Being a Wallflower 

Dear 2014,

I hope you can help pull me out of this rut I've been in. I promise I'm working on it, I just need a little help. K, thanks.