T-Rex

I'm back! Rexburg, I h a v e m i s s e d y o u. 

I'm happy to be back. I wanna be here, and I need to be here. So it's good. 

Saturday I flew into SLC, and Chris picked me up and drove me here to Rexburg. We got to catch up on everything for that four hour drive to Rexburg. It almost seems like we never left! When we got to Rexburg, JayLene greeted us. IT'S SO GOOD TO BE BACK! Since it was a beautiful day, we went to the park and threw a football around. And then headed to Idaho Falls to shop. Like old times. 

Easter was really good. Church was great. We had a nice dinner and then went on a walk around campus. Kind of like the calm before the storm. 

Classes started Monday. It's different this semester. I have classes that are actually for my major rather than foundations. I feel like an adult now. Which is probably good, because I am one. 

We celebrated making it through our first day of school by playing ultimate frisbee that night. :) love my friends. Then we went back to Chris' to watch the office. So good. 

Logan you are p e r f e c t by the way 

A huge thank you to my best friends Jaylene and Chris for keeping me busy through that first rough weekend. You da best. 

"It so doesn't matter who likes us....WE LIKE US." -zen to zany

Good days, good friends & goodbyes

Friday was my last day of work at Elaine's. It was bittersweet. This time around it's different. Over summer I didn't have much time to make friends at work. I got hired late in the summer, it was crazy busy, and I wasn't there for long. But over the past few months, I made a lot of friends, and a few really great ones. It's hard leaving a job you enjoy, and it's even harder leaving the people that made it enjoyable. 

Sunday was a good day. Church is always good. And seeing as it's been a few weeks since I've been able to go, it's nice seeing people. I said goodbye to my best good friend Melissa. I'll miss her. But I'm happy she has the chance to stay home, especially now that she has Ryan. I also got to go to dinner with some friends, and it was good just hanging out.

 

Monday was perfect. I went to Six Flags...again. Once again, the lines were perfect. And it was good hanging out with Brenda, Dane, and Lauren one last time before I leave. They may not know it, but they are all pretty great. And I love em. They made these last few weeks pretty dang good. I'll miss them a lot when I'm gone. 

I've never been good at goodbyes. So I guess this is more of a lot of see you later alligators. Till next time, I'll miss you Fresno. 

P.S. I didn't want the night to end either. 

K, bye. 

"This town will always be too small for all the dreams held inside my head. I'm sorry, but I cannot stay."

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What do you do, when there is nothing you can do? 

I've been struggling with that tonight. 

"Silence speaks volumes."

That one time I got a candy for going to the vet...

So last night my dog Molly decided that she would try to jump from the top of her dog house, to the barbecue..or so we think..and somewhere in between the jump and the landing she lost one of her "toe" nails. Like the ENTIRE nail. And she has a blood clotting disorder...so..yeah.  

We ended up being able to get the bleeding to stop and wrapped it well and put a baby sock on it so she couldn't get to it. 

Since she has a blood clotting disorder we thought it'd be best to get it checked out by the vet, just to make sure. So this afternoon my dad and I took her.  

I hadn't eaten anything other than a few pieces of LIFE cereal and I hadn't had anything to drink all day either, so I was weak to begin with. Then I had to hold molly while we were waiting in the waiting room for approximately 5 min..which isn't a big deal, except she's almost 40 pounds. So needless to say my arms were a little tired. When we got called back to a room my dad and the vet started talking about electrical things..apparently they're good friends..(news to me), and I went with the nurse to get molly checked out. Once again I had to hold her. So my arms were extra weak at this point. Then the BFF's came in to help, finally. At this point I was feeling a little weird but I didn't want to say anything so I gave molly to my dad and sat down. When they were finished my dad asked me to hold molly AGAIN while he talked to his best friend about the electrical stuff that he needed done. So I was standing with my weak arms, holding my 40 pound dog, waiting patiently for my dad when....I fainted. Feel free to LaughOutLoud. Luckily my dad was there to catch me, and more importantly Molly. The next few minutes were pretty much a blur. I couldn't see anything and I couldn't really hear anything either, but I knew what was going on to a certain extent. Anyway, long story short, I laid down for a second and everything went back to normal and the doctor gave me candy and everything was all better. 

THE END.

Six Flags

So yesterday I went with my friends/co-workers to Six Flags Magic Mountain and it was the best thing ever. Seriously though, definitely one of my favorite trips.

We left at like 6:45, just to be safe and it actually worked out perfectly. We got to ride everything we wanted to including: X2 (twice), Tatsu, Apocalypse, Superman, Lex Luther's drop of doom, Riddler's Revenge, Batman, Goliath, Full Throttle, and SCREAM. And it was honestly the best time to go. The lines were super short, and the weather was perfect. Plus we're all really chill and we get along really well, so it just works. 

We spent a little less than 8 hours at the park and then headed home thinking it would only be a 3-3 and a half hour drive. WRONG. about ten miles out of Six flags we hit the worst traffic of our lives. Dane put his GPS up and I kept checking back to see how far we had traveled. Three hours in we had gone like 5 miles, and then we saw a sign that read, "2 hour delay from this point." So we sat in a car for a 8 hour drive home that we thought would be less than half of that. And we all got really delirious and started playing really weird games including, the alphabet game, and "we're going on a camping trip", and talking about weird things. But I think we would all do it again, because it was a ton of fun. :)

"We take really good pictures, like we're really photogenic.'-Dane

"It smells like bananas....Mallorie you smell like bananas, it's you, you smell like bananas."-Lauren

"But first...let me take a selfie."

K, bye.

P.S. can't wait to go again over summer. :)

Simplicity

Let's make this simple; simple things make me happy.
for instance:

reconnecting with old friends, the sunrise every morning on my way to work, finishing a great book, getting close to people I never expected to, song lyrics that bring me hope, gift cards from co-workers saying thanks, the end of long days, having Saturdays off (better yet having Sundays off), handshakes, thankful customers, a clean room, warm laundry, perfect smelling shampoo, molly greeting me when I get home, when my favorite characters in a television show finally get together after I've been rooting for them for five whole seasons. 

Yeah, that makes me happy. :)

k, bye.

"Happiness comes in many forms-in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It’s okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be…" -Lucas Scott

OTH

Last night I was laying in bed, and I thought to myself, "I wanna be great."

And I know I can be. And I don't think there is anything wrong with that. I know I have potential.

I'm done being mediocre. I don't want to end up looking back on life wishing I could have lived a better one. I WANT TO BE GREAT.

  

"I’ve come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I’m a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. And recognize that every day won’t be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it’s only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wish for. Maybe you’ll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination." -Coach Whitey Durham

Alexis Victoria Morris

Goodbyes are hard. And I'm definitely not good with them. 

So here's a letter to Lexi. A letter that will go unread.

Dear Alexis,

First off I just want you to know that I was so thankful to have gotten to know you. I remember when you first came to our ward. You had this glow about you. I think we were all drawn to you from the start. And then as we grew up I got to know you better. And I loved watching you grow up. I loved hanging out with you and Ali. You both have this great spirit about you. I loved seeing you up at camp. And I enjoyed the opportunity I had to be your "5th year." You were such a beautiful girl, and you were always there to cheer people up. We were never super close, but I knew I had a friend in you. I know I will never comprehend the internal struggle you fought, but I hope that you will find great happiness in the presence of your Heavenly Father. We will miss you. And most of all, we love you. Always.

I'll see you again someday,

Mallorie Hakanson

Asher

This morning on my way to work I was all upset because it was early and I'm lazy and I didn't really want to go to work. So I was all bitter. And then I walked in the front door into the lobby and this beautiful little boy gave me the biggest smile and I wanted to hug him, because he made my bad morning a great one. His name was Asher.

Since I'm not an RDA (registered dental assistant) and I just do sterilization, I don't get to interact with the kids all that much. But I was really drawn to this little guy. He was just so cute. And as I was restocking the drawers under his chair he was excitedly showing me all the tools that were going to be used to clean his teeth. HE WAS THE CUTEST LITTLE GUY. And when I showed him that water squirted out of one of the tools he about lost it. All he kept saying was , "more, more!" So cute.

FUN FACT: I've always wanted to adopt a baby boy from Africa. And I don't care what anyone says. I want to do it, so I will.

Anyway, Asher was adopted from Africa with his baby brother about six months ago and today was his first time going to the dentist. He's 2 and full of life. He was so genuinely excited about being there that we all were wondering what his parents promised him if he was good. Haha. His parents told us that in Africa, children enjoy going to the doctor because it means that they are going to get some extra attention. So when they told Asher that he was going to the "tooth doctor" his eyes lit up with excitement. They also said that the reason he was so excited about the water is because he never really had much of it growing up. Water is a rare commodity where he is from. 

I think it just really goes to show what we take for granted here in the states. Thanks Asher for making my day. I hope to have a little boy just like you in the future. You're adorable sweet boy. 

Where feet may fail

For the days that are tough. Like today.

Oceans (Where feet may fail)- Hillsong UNITED

"You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown where feet may fail

And there I find You in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine"

Sharp Tooth

I HATE BEING THE BAD GUY. You know? Like the bearer of bad news, or the one that has to tell someone something that will probably end up hurting them. hate it, hate it, hate it. And I feel as if I am that person today, well actually this week. And it makes me literally go insane. I make up these scenarios in my mind that maybe if I do this I will end up feeling this way and then I wont have to tell them that. I seriously would do anything to not have to be that person. Sometimes it seems as if I make myself unhappy trying to find a way to get out of being "bad news Barry."

And as if one bad thing isn't enough to tell someone within the week, let's all just give a great big round of applause to Alyssa for calling me into work forcing me to tell the same person even more bad news. 

Sorry I'm dramatic. K. bye.

P.s. on a lighter, much happier note...aren't they cute? hard hat and all. 

Starry Night

Sundays are so good. They always have been. The past few have been especially great. I love my friends. And I love the Gospel. And my Heavely Father. And my Savior, especially my Savior. Thanks dad for converting mom and being good examples. I love you for that. 

Today was just a great day. Smiles all around. 

(This came on while I was getting ready today. I love it.)

"Jason drew me even closer to him, 'you care about me, don't you?'

'How do you know that?' My lips were practically touching his now-

'Because I care about you too.'"

-The Secret Journal of Brett Colton

A letter to Lanth

Dear Lanthan,

Today marks the tenth day since I saw you last. I miss you a lot more than usual. It's weird being home with you not here. Mckennah has been taking up a lot of your time lately, and deep down I understand. But I'm not gonna lie, she's not my favorite person right now. I hope you know that I love being your sister. I'm glad we figured out how to get along, cause you're my best friend. Forever. I miss you like crazy. Sometimes I think about how great summers were before McKennah. I loved staying up late and watching dumb shows with you every night. Those will always be some of my favorite memories. But I'm also happy that you found her. She makes you happy, so that makes me happy. I love you dude. And like I said, I MISS YOU.

Love always,
Mal

Chances

Since I got home from school in January I've been helping out at the dentist office that my mom works at. I was originally hired to do sterilization, which is a fancy way of saying..."we need you to clean the instruments and mop up puke when necessary." Luckily, yesterday was the first time I have ever been needed for the latter. But guess what? I did it, I cleaned up someone's throw up. And it wasn't even someone I love. Just some random girl. And I have lived to tell of the experience. Looks like my future kids won't have too bad of a mom after all.

Anyway, I like working. I feel useful, and that's a good feeling.



p.s. to the boy that has feelings for me at this moment in time...thanks for making me feel wanted. i think i like you too.

"afraid to love beyond what i can lose when it comes to you."

Thoughts on thoughts

I don't know how to feel about this. I've never had someone so into me in my entire life. It's kinda freaking me out. It's also kinda endearing.

I got mad at Greg today for telling me to do something just as I was about to do it. Sorry dad, I love you.

Jillian Michaels, you're DVD kicked my bottom. I may need help getting out of bed in the morning.

MOLLY SHAKES HANDS FOLKS.

I've always wanted a sister. She'd be good to talk to at a time like this.

If you call me mal I like you. Mally...not so much.

I like to put quotes at the end of my posts. Deal with it.

K, bye

P.s. MELISSA THIS IS TWO DAYS IN A ROW.


"You have suffered enough at war with yourself, it's time that you've won."

For the days I need reminding

Just a few reminders to myself. I figure that maybe if I write/type...whatever...them out that they will be easier to remember.

-life has lots of ups and downs, it's meant to be that way.
-you're lucky to have two jobs, let alone one. stop complaining about having to go to work.
-it feels good to get a compliment. stop making people feel bad when they say something nice about you,
-IT'S NOT WORTH IT. ever.
-people have your back Mal. you got this.
-it's okay to have a bad day(s). just make sure you're doing everything you can to make for good ones.
-you are a daughter of God. no one can ever take that from you. no one.
-you have good things going for you. don't jeopardize that.
-stay busy, you'll be better off.
-stop feeling sorry for yourself. you have a wonderful, live and love it.
-laugh it out, you're always happier when you are laughing.



"Let me see redemption win, let me know the struggle ends. That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn. I wanna know a song can rise from the ashes of a broken life, and all that's dead inside can be reborn. Cause I'm worn."-Tenth Avenue North

Lunch.

Since Friday night I have had to remind myself that it is just a meal. That's all Mallorie, just a meal.

Friday night an old friend managed to squeeze himself back into my life. Just like that. Since October 6, 2011 I planned on never seeing this person again. Okay....that's a lie. But I promised myself that I wouldn't go out of my way to cross his path.

Needless to say, our paths have crossed. And he just happens to be a little nicer, a little more handsome and a little more intent on seeing me than he was two years ago. Anyway, he says he wants to meet up for lunch to catch up. So I agreed, cause honestly I missed him a lot, and he was a good friend, and how can you say no to such a perfect smile?

Adam Cleveland, don't you go breakin' my heart now.

Things.

- God is good. Always.
- I'm struggling with the decision of where to travel. I'm up for suggestions
- Books, books are good. Especially the one I just read (My Ridiculous, Romantic Obsessions.) It's real life, I think that's why I enjoyed it so much. Thanks grandma Carol.
- Family is best.
- I would LOVE some rain. K, thanks.
- I miss my brother. He's here, but he's not here. And I don't care that that makes no sense.
- Wedding videos on pinterest make me so hopeful for my future.
- It feels good to let go of someone that let go of you so long ago. so so good.
- I'm gonna be a better friend this week. (Melissa, see you Sunday)
- I'm teaching my dog Molly to shake (hands)....update soon.
- The Pursuit of Happyness, watch it.
- You Are More- Tenth Avenue North, listen to it.



"The greatest thing in the world is not so much where we are, but the direction in where we are going."

Two Thousand and Fourteen

2014, I like the sound of that.
2013 was a rough year. But it had some good points as well.

For instance:

-Running with Dad (greg)

-Spending time with Nana.

-Sleeping in with Molly.

-GOOD MOVIES

-Lots of time to sit and think (good and bad)

-Visit from Jayleney :)

-DISNEYLAND

-First Job

-$$$$$$$$$$$$$

-Good  GREAT friends.

-Mom's road trip to Idaho to get me

-Going back to Rexburg.

-Rooming with two of the best people I've ever known. 

-family game nights

-lots and lots of laughs

-San Francisco x2

-LA

-NO MORE ACNE

-Utah at Thanksgiving

-Snow, lots of snow

-Montana x2

-new friends!

-good music

-flights home

-the beautiful Holiday season spent with family

Looking back, I have a lot to be thankful for. 

I'm more than ready to move on from this past year. Like I said, it was a tough one. 

"She wasn't bitter. She was sad, though. But it was the hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time."- The Perks of Being a Wallflower 

Dear 2014,

I hope you can help pull me out of this rut I've been in. I promise I'm working on it, I just need a little help. K, thanks.